I shall not tell a lie.

Do not ever believe me if I say I'm not an idiot. Don't believe anyone who says they aren't, but me especially. Your life will be much easier with this simple rule.

Failure is not an option with these two.

As I said last night, I intend to be a strong force in changing the ideology and practice of humanity. This is a tall order, and it's determination, disgust, and diligence that drives me to break the detriment. But I'm not alone. I have my wrecking crew to back me up. Murphy's Law and Mimsey Mayhem. They don't play around (unless there's string involved).

A world that isn't mine I shall claim.

I think I've finally figured out how to articulate my feelings about my very nature with relation to my environment. I am the man I want to be living in a world I don't care for. Lots of people say, about me and themselves, that they were born in the wrong time. I wasn't. The type of man I am has never held a place in society, though there may have been a few of us popping up here and there. The ideal is there, but it is folly to believe that many took these ideals to heart. For instance, our movement, the hardcore movement, was the directed evolution of the punk rock movement, which was more of a general rebellion with no real direction. We roasted about change, but it led many to elitism and conceit. They did not truly believe in change, only in their chance to stand on a pedestal. I decided to be something different. I pulled the best attributes I saw in various places and discarded the contradictions. Though my passions may lie in certain aspects of the 60's, post modernism and the like, I don't belong there. I can pick aspects of any time period that I like, but there are far more that I disagree with. Our current time is no exception. My views are classic, modern, and futuristic. I believe them to be universal, within our tiny section of this vast universe.

I am a gentleman amongst the myriad of the wicked and self-righteous, fiercely loyal amidst the betrayers. Self-centered at times I admit, but never arrogant, and only punishing inwardly. I see over and over the terrible things that men do, and for the longest time it angered me because it gives the rest of us a bad reputation and cause for mistrust, until I realized that I am not one of them. I am not merely the minority, I am something different altogether. And I do not belong. However, this train of thought is useless and useful at the same time. The plan doesn't change. I can continue to beat man at his own game, and I will rise above those who accept deceit and detriment. I will climb the ranks and strive to influence for the side of compassion, exposing those who seek to destroy. The parade may have ended, but that does not mean we may not march with our heads high. I will not disregard this world. Some of us said we wanted to make a difference. Most have fallen, but a few remain. I fight for all, but mainly for one. Whether I know who she is matters not. I would tear down the house before the tree. I realize that this reference makes no sense if you haven't watched Parade's End. So watch it. You'll thank me.

 

"Believe me love, it was the nightingale."