It subsided for a bit because I thought I had found someone else who filled that mold, but now that that's done it goes back to her. It's plagued me all weekend and I can't shake it, despite my full undrstanding of the futility of it. I also understand that one reason I go back to thinking about her is that she appreciated my efforts, even though she wasn't ready for them. One word would change my life. A simple yes. But I will never hear that word or that voice again, so I try in vain to combat one interest with another. I try putting on music to divert my attention, but none of it helps me sleep, especially considering how picky I am with music. The best Pandora station I've found so far to sleep to is the Further Seems Forever station, but even then I keep having to break my sleepiness to turn off some song that doesn't fit. This also means that I won't be able to get up early enough to go to the gym, which is another means of stress relief for me. I just want to sleep. Why can't this song be true for me? I play my part. I put my all into it. ln this case, love did let her get away. I will take Sara Bareilles, though. I could be perfectly content marrying her. "Working class boys dreaming of girls from far away points."-FSF, song-Snowbirds and Townies. Goodnight, hopefully
Sunday, December 16, 2012
My weekly Sunday can't sleep session.
It subsided for a bit because I thought I had found someone else who filled that mold, but now that that's done it goes back to her. It's plagued me all weekend and I can't shake it, despite my full undrstanding of the futility of it. I also understand that one reason I go back to thinking about her is that she appreciated my efforts, even though she wasn't ready for them. One word would change my life. A simple yes. But I will never hear that word or that voice again, so I try in vain to combat one interest with another. I try putting on music to divert my attention, but none of it helps me sleep, especially considering how picky I am with music. The best Pandora station I've found so far to sleep to is the Further Seems Forever station, but even then I keep having to break my sleepiness to turn off some song that doesn't fit. This also means that I won't be able to get up early enough to go to the gym, which is another means of stress relief for me. I just want to sleep. Why can't this song be true for me? I play my part. I put my all into it. ln this case, love did let her get away. I will take Sara Bareilles, though. I could be perfectly content marrying her. "Working class boys dreaming of girls from far away points."-FSF, song-Snowbirds and Townies. Goodnight, hopefully
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